Well i woke up extremely bitter this morning. At 7:30.. when i was supposed to leave. However, i made my first class... at 8 (impressed yet?) which i was loath to go to.. however i was informed by my lovely parents i am not to skip ANY classes. Brutal. So i booked it to class, sat thru it all the while totally dead to the world. Then comes cup of coffee number 1. ( I say one... "because there are several." input Mr Collins voice.) I stopped at the cafe which was so providentially on my route to theory. It's like God really was telling me to drink coffee before i just fell down and died. (which would have been depressing.. to some. After all my high school teacher used to tell me "Coffee is proof that God exists and wants us to be happy." okay maybe i dont quite agree with the doctrine behind that but it sounded amazing at the time.) One Venti white mocha, which lemme tell you, might just be better than SB. OH MY... (fire reigns down.. i hope they did not hear that.)
As I walked to theory I clutched my amazing, deliSHUS, NO, DIVINE White mocha. The dearest Asian angel that made if for me warned me against its "EXTREME HOT CONTENTS" but i did not really care. . FOR A MOMENT THERE i was home free! it was proving to be a very lovely day... (not so fast holly) i saw my theory teacher... She apparently was having a bitter morning too (maybe i should have brought her coffee? actually in her defense she was not feeling so swell..) In any case! (and at this juncture... in which of course i was minding my OWN business.)
Wait... Side note. OKAY no one in my class understands the concept of the wrath of Kathy Morgan. I mean, she is all knowing (not meant to be blasphemous) in the realms of music! Her bad side is the LAST (and i mean LAST) place you want to be. In any case, she was not so very happy with our theory class this morning. We weren't doing things quite fast enough for her taste. I really should have been more vocal. Since i knew all the answers of course. (BAH! jk)
Really, truly, i cowered in bitter fear..Not quite willing to face the once bright world, and calm clean, coffee filled existence which had now turned dark and dare i say "henious" (!)(Yes, i know its misspelled. But you have to pronounce ever syllable. DUH)
I actually did pretty well in theory. Got most of my analysis right :) YAY. However, I was not to smile... Because when Kathy isn't happy, I'M REALLY NOT HAPPY. (And if you had any sense you wouldn't be happy either! or speaking unnecessarily) I then suffered thru piano. Dreaded my test in a week. Which i am in NO WAY prepared for. (Let's not talk about tho.) I had my break at 11. I tried to focus on my theory HW. BUT to no avail!
My phone started to buzz (which is somewhat unusual in it of itself. No one ever texts me any more. #bitter) (WAIT!? IS IT FATE?) It was my dear friend Garrick. "Soooooo, holly... You want to come and get me and lana? We are stranded.." (Wait for it) "..At starbucks." (CAN THIS BE TRUE?!) "...I Will buy you coffee...?" (GAHHHH YES! FAVOR IS MINE! PRAISE BE!) I rushed to my car and tried not to speed while driving (that didnt go so well) I arrived and was soon greeted by an OH So AMAZING Grande Iced Caramel macchiato. mmmmmhm. It was my drink of choice all summer. :) The woman in the drive thru was so nice that she brightened my spirits immediately. She, (the second angel of my day) sensing my scatterbrainedness, "would you like a few extra pumps of espresso?" Oh yes. Please and THANK YOU! :) i was on my way! Smiles and friends a bit more evident now.
Only... it was 11:20... and what happens at 12? Aural skills. BA DA BUM! Garrick and i went to see dear Kathy Morgan in office hours to see if she needed help grading her fundamental classes or if she wanted us to go get her soup in the cafe but she forgot her hw and she did not have an appetite. We tried to cheer her up a little.. but she thinks she is getting the flu. (I hope not the swine flu. BEEN THERE done that action! NO thank you!) Aural skills actually went better then i thought it was going to. We did 2 part counterpoint today! And Kathy was a little better ( i like to think it was because i brightened her day with my sweetness and my love for all things theory homework :)
We had sectionals for expressions.. That.. went.. No comment. By the end, i was bitter once again! Thankfully my 3rd angel of the day was Kyle! (Asians make good angels apparently) Feeling my negative and innerbitter, "Holly do you want to go to Starbucks after choir?" (wait.. did i hear you right?! STARBUCKS?! What an "excellent notion!" -input Robert Ferris' voice from sense and sensibility.) YES. Off we were :) "One iced grande 5 pump chai with 2 pumps of vanilla." (and you know.. a few shots of espresso. :) It was great to hang out with Kyle. Marlon joined us. You know, just old buds :) Keepin' it real. (Or whatever you youngins say these days. ) I left around 3:15. Brightly on my way. :) I honestly can't remember what i did in between then and dinner... (lack of coffee clarity? yes? Anyone?)
Dinner was interesting. :) HAH my mother is an amazing cook BUT she happened to put too much red pepper in our chili.. Um it was HOT. We had no cheese or sour cream. That turned us all bitter. A very, very BITTER REDish COLOR! But let us move on. :)
We went over to my sister Kimberly's house. I had not seen my two nieces or my nephew in weeks! #badaunt. We pulled up and they ran out, totally ignoring mamaw and papaw. :) GAVE ME BIIIIIIIG HUGS. Talk about gratifying :) Somewhere around here all bitterness was gone. We played, looked for ant hills for lukeys ant farm, toured the new house, played with gracie, ate lush homemade granola bars and i played beauty shop with the babo :) "Oh aunt dee your hair is so big and pretty." i shoulda have taken a picture. It was HUGE! #Curlfrizz AND THEN Micheal says, "WELL, i think it is time we celebrate with a frapp!" (What... A FRAPP? This makes coffee cup number four. :) Let me tell you! My brother in law makes the most amazing frapps in these parts!! That's fer dern sure! It was SO tasty. Complete with chocolate sauce and all :) thanks Micheal. :)))) I bathed the kids, put them into their precious beds and said prayers. Luke- "Dear lord. Please help me to trust you and to obey my parents. and please help the people in Haiti and Alabama to have faith....aaamen" -Babo- "Dear Jesus, please help me to know you and to obey you and help the missionaries in mexico to... to.. too.. know you. amen" PRECIOUS.
"But Jesus called for them, saying, "Permit the children to come to Me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these." I love them so much. I tucked them sweetly in to their little beds, got lots of kisses and cuddles and closed the door.
I'm very thankful for the stresses i have in my life that are teaching me to become more disciplined and not resort to bitterness.
"Let all bitterness and wrath and anger and clamor and slander be put away from you, along with all malice." I am working more and more to put to death these deeds in my flesh. I do not want to be bitter. And as dumb as you may think it is i am so thankful for my coffee. God is the master of all comforts :) and he made coffee. <3 Just another day in the life..
love always
Holly Dee
Holly Dee
