Heart Of My Own Heart, Whatever Befall, Still Be My Vision, O Ruler Of All.

( I am posting this a week late folks… my bad..)

Its funny how my church will always address the things I need to hear.
All last week I was struggling with a few things spiritually. By the time I got to church I was rather angry and nothing was pleasing me. When i sat down in my seat...I was utterly convicted about my attitude.

I realized part of the reason I had been having bad thoughts, bad attitudes, angry outbursts, was simply because I had barely read the scripture the week before. My pastor opened up the sermon talking about the need for being in the word. He was encouraging us all to read through the bible in 2010. Or at least the books we had never read before. He encouraged us all to have a plan. Instead up just to sit down and go “ah well what should I read today..” while all bible reading is good (obviously) he wanted us to read and become familiar with all the things we had never gone through before.

Mr. Nelson stated that he knew some people had not even opened their bibles since the last church service… I may have once or twice, but not enough to grow me in my spiritual life, or to ward off the flaming arrows of the devil. I decided instead of sitting down and devoting time to God I would just live in the flesh. (Not a good plan btw)

I think all of us have this problem…“Oh.. I will be alive for a while yet.. I will save the growing up for later.” I have said it many times and I will say it again. LIFE IS SHORT! I have seen so many people’s lives vanish right before my eyes. Life is not something you can hold onto. It’s something that must be taken seriously. “..Yet you do not know what your life will be like tomorrow. You are just a vapor that appears for a little while and then vanishes away.” We cant ever save growing up for “later.”

Growing has to be a constant and ever present fact of our existence. Christ needs to be first in every one of our lives. I want to be able to say, "Thou and thou only first in my heart." And being in the word every single day makes it so much easier to follow the straight path of righteousness.

So my plan is to read the last few chapters of Deuteronomy and to read through the rest of the whole Old Testament. (Along with reading the proverbs through every month. At the end of this year. I want to have read through the proverbs 12 times.) I want to have every book of the old testament read; and not just read but digested and applied.

Growing up and learning by no means implies that there is no fun to be had. ( Come on its me.. fun and drama is never far away when im around ;)For me, I just realize that there is a need for recognition of responsibility. I have things to live up to; I have my own standards that I do not at all measure near towards. Then of course there are Gods standards. By which scale I fail every moment.

Just thinking


Love always.

Holly