The true nature of what friendship should be (What ever could it be that has brought me to this loss?)

The definition of a friend.

A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts.
A person with whom one is allied in a struggle or cause; a comrade.
A person attached to another by feelings of affection, esteem or personal regard.
One that is not hostile.

"A true friend is the greatest of all blessings, and that which we take the least care of all to acquire."
François Duc de La Rochefoucauld

"Being of the same mind, maintaining the same love, united in the spirit, intent on one purpose. Do nothing from selfishness or empty conceit, but with humility of mind, regard one another as more important than yourselves. Do not merely look out for your own spiritual interests but also for the interests of others. have this attitude in yourselves, which was also in Christ Jesus. " ( Philippians 2)

"This is my commandment, that you love one another, just as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this, that one lay down his life for his friends.." ( John 15)

I think.. that says it all.

Just thinking..

Holly.

ThanksGiving, :)

:) Ahh it is that time of year. WITH MASSIVE AMOUNTS OF DELICIOUS FOODDDDS. Tomorrow, we are all getting together at lunch for the even.. I am pretty excited. :) IT IS our first thanksgiving with stevie in the family.( alas.. i suppose wade and i shall have to be couple..)

I love this time of year and obviously it makes me think of how many things i am thankful for. and even the things im not really thankful for... like.. half my baby tooth falling out.. and school being gay.. dont really matter on the whole :) i am soo thankful for what god has done and what he is doing. So many things seem to go wrong all the time, and then God comes in and fixes everything! I love where he has me. in this family with these people; i am so blessed.

Just thinking (uber late)
love always

Hol

Two is better than one. (Unless the 2nd is a boozer. )

My sister Ellen has become a "we." Oh my.. "We dont like that." We cant come." GAH! ;) but i love 'em.
Today I went to school! Tuesdays and Thursdays are my short days. I only have history and choir. But I did have a voice lesson and that was really nice. NOT. It was really hard actually. So many things to remember... GR. AND THEN I LEFT MY RECORDER IN THERE!!! Because i am a dork. Thankfully Andres went and rescued it for me before someone stole it.. that would have been extremely lame. Finals are coming up.. I am swamped. I should be reading a book right now.. am i am supposed to be writing a paper...
BUT OH MY THANKSGIVING IS NEXT WEEK!!! The family is all going over to ivys, and our menu!!! Is totally amazing.. I am really looking forward to all that pie. even though i dont really like most pie.. But when it comes to Coconut cream IIIII am all over that. !! Ivy makes the most amazingly delicious coconut cream pie. :) And of course Buttermilk pie is a family fave. DELECTIBLE! This lunch is going to me so huge.. I either need to starve myself, or eat a ton beforehand. Im not sure which...

This year has gone by so fast. There have been so many hard and good things this year. And so many rewarding things. But even the hard things will work out eventually. And they will all just make you stronger and better. Gods will will always happen. Mrs Fuqua told me, "Holly god will always give you just the right amount of tools you need to acomplish his will." she is a smart woman.

I have been thinking a lot about resting in Christ lately. Most likely because in church my pastor was going over the sabbath, and how it should be. But let me just pick your over worked under rested brains a bit. "Come to me all who are weary laden and i will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for i am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." In Genesis when God was creating the world and then he rested on the 7th day it never says, "and it was evening and morning a 7th day." this symbolizes that the "rest" with Christ is eternal; it goes on forever if you are a christian. God did not work again until man sinned. The picture is that God got back up, rolled up his sleeves, and began to work again. Because after we sinned there we things to do; we needed God. And he worked for us and is continuing to work for us everyday. The whole idea of the "Sabbath" was FOR man. Because after the fall man needed rest. And the thing is, we are supposed to be resting in christ. "Casting all our burdens on him." And in our rest we are supposed to meditate and contemplate about God and all he has done for us. It is such and intriguing thought.

"Come all you weary with your heavy loads
Lay down your burdens find rest for your souls
Cause my yoke is easy and my burden is kind
I’ll take yours upon me and you can take mine

Come all you weary move through the earth
You've been spurned at fine restaurants and kicked out of church
Got a couple of loaves sit down at my feet
Lend me your ears and we'll break bread and eat

Come all you weary
Come gather round near me
Find rest for your souls

Come all you weary, you cripples you lame
I’ll help you along you can lay down your canes
We’ve got a long way to go but we’ll travel as friends
The lights growing bright further on further in

Come all you weary
Come gather round near me
Find rest for your souls."

Just thinking
Love always

Holly

p.s... I love how totally random my titles are.

Being faithful to the things GOD has entrusted to us. ( I dont want to live in a shadow)

Do you ever feel like you are not being faithful to carry out what God has handed you? Maybe perhaps you are slacking off a bit? I have been feeling that way lately. Mostly about school; but also about my one on one relationship with Christ. God had ordained my circumstances to be 7 classes deep; while my sanity is somewhat failing. there have been so many things at school which have been hard for me to deal with. But all that aside.. I have not been faithful. It's true so many things have gotten in the way and those things have made it even harder to focus. but this is no excuse. I know i can do so well; if i would only try harder.
And now the end of the semester is here and i just want to give up. but i cant! i never give up, it isnt what i am. I just have to buckle down, and DO IT.

I have not been using my time to the glory of my Lord. ("Do all things in the name of the Lord.")I have not been trying as much as i should to seek him first and know Him. And because of that my faith is failing. It is so hard being a christian.. I sometimes ask myself how much of this i really believe. And then of course i kick myself, because i know i would be nowhere without Jesus. I think satan is using these thoughts to pull me away from god.

How people act at school has really been getting to me lately though. There is so much pervertedness and foulness.. it makes me sick. Then i think.. " Am i really trying to fit in with these people? Shouldnt i be trying all the more harder to fight against the mold and fight against this crowd and the normality of the world?" the last thing i want is to seem normal. What happened to being diferent? I was thinking about a conversation i had with one of my friends last summer. We were talking about summer camp. And i thought just how easy is was to be a christian at summer camp. We were "allowed" to be on fire for the lord. where as when you left those blessed amazing cabins and got back into REAl life.. nothing was the same. I guess wanting to fit in is something that i have always struggled with. I think it is mostly because I have always wanted to be frinds with everyone, and i really hate beng hated. But then i find myself with barely any TRUE friends. Sure there are a ton of people i "hang with." But true friends? Those are pretty scarce these days. Friendship apparently doesnt mean as much to somepeople as it means to me. "A man of too many friends come to ruin, But there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother." Ultimatly, Christ is all i need. But i am so thanful that christ sent my sisters to me.

But sometimes i feel like i am living in their shadow. With so much to live up to. Lemme tell you... that is a huge shadow. How can i measure up to what they are? the easy answer is that i cant. But i suppose i have to live for the Lord and not even think about how amazing my dearest sisters are. I need to please God rather then men. Mrs Fuqua told me something last summer that has helped me so much.. " Holly, The kimberlys, Emilys, Ivys, and ellens all have done well. But I think the people that fail and fall can do such great things for the Lord. Maybe even more then the people that never failed in the first place. Because those that fail, get back up and you can see just how powerful our God is. He brings glory to himself when his children sin and then when he brings them back to himself." Not to say that its good to fail to bring glory to God; it isnt obviously. I wish i never had. But i know God has something great in store for me. And i know he can still use me even though i have failed extensivly. I just need to get out of my own way and out of his way! So that he CANN use me. Despite the shadow.. I am so thankful for my sisters and could not ask for better role models. :) i couldnt be more thankful for what christ has done in my life.

Anywho.. Im sorry that this was so long.

Just thinking
Love always

Maggie

The Big day is over. ( I CANT TAKE MY MIND OFF YOU)

Well, my dearest belle.. has gotten herself hitched. She is now enjoying marital bliss on her honeymoon in Cozumel Mexico. It was such a beautiful wedding. There were however some very tense moments. Like when we were all getting ready and Mrs Nelson ( my pastors wife) was ironing my Bridesmaid dress; She turned to me with this shocked look on her face... " I just burned a whole through the dess!!!!!!! " This statement of course threw Me, Ellen and Emma into a flurry of excitement. " DONT TELL YOUR MOTHER!!!!!" We knew mom would freak out if she found out. Luckily Mrs nelson is a sewing connoisseur, she wiped out a needle and thread and made the burned setion into another pick up. ;) ( No one ever noticed) All the while Ellen was singing REALLY lowd, " In christ alone my hope is found!!!" Just to try and keep the situation from being heard in the other room where momy was.. But not only that. My mom decided she was going to iron my sash.. I told her, " Mom, you know maybe you should iron over a towell.." she burned it also.. and told emma not to tell me. ;) Little did she know, there was a much larger burn in the back of the dress.
The rest of the wedding went smoothly, besides Abby deciding to lie down on the stage during the vows.. But she just looked too beyond adorible to fuss at. ;)
We had such great after parties also, Everything just went fabulous. And besides... THE COWBOYS WON!! Made my weekend. ;)

I am however uber sad.. I didnt think I would miss belle so much. I was frankly looking so forward to her going because im tired of dealing with her "henious" bedroom.. it was time for her to get married. But i say.. It is so hard being the youngest and watching all your sisters go off and leave you. i have been feeling pretty alone. But mama always tells me, "Holly when you feel lonely you just have to reach out to other people." So i have been trying.

Love Always

7 Days (Love taught me to fly)

Aw well it is WELL past time for a new blog entry.. The truth is, there has been so much weighing on my mind lately. and I am not quite sure where to start.. But i am sure i will get back to all of you on all of that.. maybe

But on a brighter side of things. :) MY DEAREST SISTER ELLEN IS GETTING MARRIED IN 7 DAYS! i cant wait to stand up there with her. :) it is going to be a very busy week. Not only do i have school every day, BUT there is all the wedding plans and wedding drama! HAHA But i cant wait to see everyone who is coming into town. The rehearsal is on thursday; there is so much to plan.. plus im getting my hair cut that day too. IT IS GOING TO BE SO BUSY!!! GAH. Ellen and stephen are so happy though. I cant wait to see what God is going to do in their life together.
School has been going very well. I have my wednesday noon recital coming up. I am singing "wishing you were somehow here again." from Phantom of the opera. :)

Just thinking (too much)

Love always
Holly

Redefinition- My eyes are the window to my inner soul.

I have been known to say.. " I need to redefine myself this week.." haha well if you have heard it.. i guess i should explain the meaning behind it. It is crazy how easy it is to get comfortable in life. Let me tell you, i don't think life should ever be easy or comfortable for believers. We always need to be defining ourselves.. or in my case REdefining myself to be more and more like our savior. AND that only comes by seeking God first and formost.. Always striving to do hard things because that will make us stronger.. (even though i know i am SO week).. I need to stop thinking i can do things my way and i can do things on my own.. because i cant. ("And He has said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness " Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me.Therefore I am well content with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ's sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong. ")

I have been thinking a lot about how i need to stive for a gentle and quiet spirit. (" but let it be the hidden person of the heart, with the imperishable quality of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is precious in the sight of God") This quality which i KNOW is of great worth.. one also that i do not posess. It always makes me think of Kelsey.. when we were young we realized the importance of a gentle and quiet spirit; and we Purposed to stirve towards one. I guess for a while i forgot, but lately i have remembered. I need to strive all the way so i can be sliver... Silver clear enough for God to see his face in me. God shouldnt be something someone has to look for in a person. He should be the most evident thing about my character, and the first thing peope notice and see.

Well this week was a little bittersweet. ( mostly sweet. :) My dearest sister is getting married to a wonderful dude. ( who contrary to public opinion i am quite fond of..) She is gorgeous and fabulous. And i know she will be so happy. last night we prayed together, ( for the life that they will share.) i will miss her desperately well she leaves... ( even though sometimes we dont get along... however thats all past eh? haha no more petty fights. i wont allow it.) For i shall be alone.. HOWEVER, (" Good Lord for alliance! Thus goes everyone to the world but I, and I am sunburnt; I may sit in a corner and cry 'heigh-ho!' for a husband!" hahaha) someday.. perhaps.. But... She is very happy. :) and i cant wait for the day to end all days! AHHHHH this is going to be epic..

!!!!!!!!!!!!
:)
Just thinking
Love Always

Maggie

Its a choice to stay.. its a dream and I wanna wake.

Good news! My grandpa seems to be doing a little better; The doctors took him off the ventilator :) I hope the Lord means this to draw him to believe.. I hope so. I miss my MOM!!!!! I cant wait for her to come home. but i am glad she is doing good there and being support for my grandma and my aunts. I would covet your continued prayers.

Ahh I had a fantabulous day! I got up this morning, and i was so tired!! LONG WEEK!!! I went to school.. which was reallay long. BUT I did totally ACE my music exam. :) i was so HAP HAP HAPPYYY! ( And i saw P-scott in the halls at school! And that made my day haha) Music Class was so hilarious today! Those music guys all make for a good laugh haha. I accidentally (NOT) opened my umbrella in the hall. ( well i was really just showing my freind Antije that is was purple.. she was totally jealous. MUAHAHAHA) but all the dudes in the next class gave me no end of greif of how we were all gonna have bad luck now. They are so weird and a i swear that one dude was totally high.. ..... anywho. it was so funny but apparently now that i tell it... It was a total " had to be there" thing. ..

I got home and i cleaned; worked on music.. I played guitar all afternoon. ( okay i say play, i really mean "try" to play.. haha but i was actually starting to get it.) :) My fingers hurt like death.. but i will prevail and maybe i will have some start up callouses by tomorrow :) I love it so much, it just feels so good to sit down and write music and play.. ahhhhhh HAPPINESS! I cant wait for christmas so i can get a keyboard for my room.. :D My joy would totally be complete haha.
THEN! Oh mann... I had to go to the doctor.. Because i have too many skin issues.. i really dont even wanna say what skin problems i have because it is totally embarassing.. even talking about how i dont want to talk about it is embarassing.. But no matter. The point is they are awful and gross and i cant wait for them to be gone. So i came home with a ton of perscriptions and creams.. blah.. but it better all go away before i get engaged ( better luck next time haha) and have a ring on my finger. i also have swollen lymph nodes.. :( and they hurt. my dad says i am "One mess after another." haha this is so true. So much drama in my little life. haha

My day has ended lovely. Me and dad got pizza and ate it together. Then he helped me with my chords.. :D I love my dad. Watching him play made me miss all the times he used to play john denver in the living room for us. :) And all us sisters would sing. haha i miss it. ITs hard being the last one at home folks!!! Feel my pain! ;)
Sorry this was so long!

Always thinking
Love always

Maggie

My ROOM!

I rearranged my room!!! IT is "loverly." Later today me and dad are gunto hang pictures! It will be amazing when i am through with it! ( btw folks.. next time i have a creative energy boost.. and i want to paint.. remind me to put down more newspaper.. haha...) I have so much homework to do for classes on monday, and if i don't get on it i'm most likely going to die!!!

Always thinking
Love always

Holly Dee :)

WHEEEEEE GLAD THATS OVER!

WHATS UP FOLKS!? Man I am super rejuvenated today! ( could be due to all the coffee :) I love how God gives me hope so easily!!! Well i thinking i failed one of my exams today... haha well not really a "haha" at all. but what can i say, i laugh in spite of myself. I had a creative burst of energy today and last night. last night i did music stuff... ya know the usual. :P it was super. AND then today, i got home from class and decided to PAINT! and i have been all afternoon. :) ( ill let you know how it goes haha.) Of course it isnt what you expect.. however, most all art forms have to be learned.. SPEAKING OF WHICH!! I have REpicked up the piano.. and i am getting a guitar in the fall, or as soon as i find one i like. I am so excited about it :) i could just sit at the piano for hours and not be bored!! ( well maybe after hours haha) And a guitar has always felt so good in my hands, ( even tho... i cant play it yet :P ) and i cant WAITT to get some EPIC (!!!!!!) Callouses! It should be pretttty SAWEET! Anywhoo... im gonna go finish.. i have blue paint alllll over my fingers.. and now all over my laptop Natasha.. haha :P

Always thinking
Love always

Holly Dee :)

"Maybe mistakes are what make our fate... without them what would shape our lives?'

Well folks I'm bummed.. First off.. I am so sorry that some of my posts have been DISMAL at best. However, i have just been struggling with so much lately.. I would love everyone to continue to pray for me.. For healed relationships, and for direction for me.

My dearest friend Lenna is moving to Cali for a year, so she can teach in a school there. I am happy for her, i encouraged her to go myself.. but i am sad for her to go. The reality that she might not come back is a daunting one. I'm glad she feels like she is doing what God is calling her to do. I wish we all had that good of direction in our lives. ( but i guess some of us have to work into our future) I suppose it is mighty selfish.. but i just hate losing people. We all know this. I can say it a million times. I guess maybe God is talking everyone away because He is calling me closer to Him. In my heart i know that that is the best place to be.. It is that gettin' there that is the hard part. If only i didn't depend on other people so much..
I catch myself thinking.. life would be so different if i had not made as many mistakes as i have. Maybe Kelsey would still be here. I know it was not my fault that my best friend was taken.. but i know god took Lyndie specifically to teach me something.. and i am still learning from her death today.
"Maybe mistakes are what make our fate... without them what would shape our lives? Maybe if we had never veered off course we wouldn't fall in love or be who we are. After all, things change, so do cities, people come into your life and they go. But it's comforting to know that the ones you love are always in your heart..."

The scene is over
A draft on the cutting room floor.
The time has come
Summer days and blue sunsets
it's enough.
"Did you hear that?"
It's the music calling..
She smiled, I laughed. We sang, we danced, we made memories.

A late summer day I can still recall
We had church one Sunday
the last words I said to you?
"I will see you sometime, I love you."
I did not know.. or i would have said all the million things is was thinking

But that day as I walked away
I thanked our god above for sending you my way.
Even though the time was short,
And I did not really get to say goodbye;
At least not the way I would have wanted to had i known all i know now

I miss those lazy days we used to spend,
Lost in our girlish schemes.
Lying on our backs by the river and swinging in your tree.
Smiling because of our secrets,
and laughing because of our dreams..

Will there be life after this?
Can anything be more beautiful?
You believed I was crazy
Well maybe i was
But I still smile every single time I think of you
I promise.. I wont ever let you fade..

Always thinking
Love always

Holly Dee

CHASS

Aww my dearest nephew charlie was born yesterday july 14th 2009. He is beyond adorable and i love him dearly. :) He was 8 pounds 14 ounces and 21 inches long. AND THATS 11 DAYS EARLY!! I am so thankful he was brought into the world well. My sister named him after my dear daddy. Ivy had us all in tears by the time she had finished telling dad.. it was a surprise for him (but we all knew hehe) I got to hold him and i gave him some "kisses cuddles hugs and nuggles." And willies sweetness toward him was so wonderful, he repeatedly stated. " i want to hold small brother!?" The whole family gathered at the hospital and we filled up the tree of caring. :) and as usual "i care the most no matter what anyone else says." haha i always have to put that. :D it was very funn. I missed haveing kelsey there... so i wrote what she put on the tree of careing.. " kelsey cares so much that she wrote this note!" and it made all who read it smile. :) I got to tell chass the gosple today when i went to see him and hold him. He was asleep.. but i will tell him again later. :D i was overcome with joy at how much i am blessed and at the amazingness of my family. I love them all so dearly. I have the greatest family in the whole wide world...

always thinking..
Love always

Hollydee

I Will Praise You In This Storm..

I love too easily.. and people leave too often.. I have been struggling with much lately; and I am trying my hardest to hide it. Because I do not want other people to see me fall and to see me struggle.. I realize that since I am a Christian.. I will suffer greatly for Christs name. The Bible never said being a Christian is easy. In fact, it says we will be persecuted and we will have trials thrown at us. And the truth is.. If i am not suffering for Christs name, something is wrong... And maybe i am not living the way that i should; nor am i living up to what my Lord Jesus has called me to be.. There has been a situation this week which i cant really give details here however, i would covet your prayers. If you know me at all you know that it is hard for me to deal with losing people, and it is hard for me to deal with people hating me.. Ivy always tells me i need to get a thicker skin, and that i need to let things just "roll off" and not bother me. But it is not always that easy.. sometimes the things people do and say stick with you. Some people can just make you feel like nothing .. However, someone once told me.." Holly no creature of Gods is without value." and it is true. God always has a plan, and you can always accomplish things for God.
Please pray for me in the weeks ahead, i started summer school on monday. So my days are very full. Also, countinue to pray for aunt Frannie to get better and for her salvation. I will write again tomorrow with all the news of my small nephew CHARLIE who was born today! Happy birthday Chass!

love always
Holly Dee

Aunt Frannie

AWW! God Is so good! He has provided for me a job! My dear Mrs Fasolino called me up the other day and told me she needed to higher someone to go and take care of her elderly aunt. She lives in an assisted living home, however she needs a lot more care then the assisted living people are going to give her. She has congestive heart faliure and we are pretty sure she does not know the lord. So i get to go and help her with whatever she needs done! It is a realy good job for me and i am very thankful Mrs F thought of me. I need a lot of prayer though! Prayer that i will have the rights words to speak to her, and so i can be able to tell her about jesus. her memory is not very good.. but i know The Lord is powerful enough to overcome that. I have to remember he holds her in his hand and he will open her eyes to the truth if he wishes. Tonight i got the opportunity to tell aunt frannie my testamony and i sang and got to read the bible to her.
I am so very thankful that God is mindful of our needs and Gods timing is always so perfect! Thank you all for the prayers! :)

Holly Dee

When i am afraid i will trust in Him

It is funny how you can be humbled even by a small child. The other day I was at my sister Kim's house and i had not been having a very good day. I was pretty angry and I was being rather complainatory. ( i just made that a word) i was also rather frustrated at God for causing certain things to happen, And not only that i though maybe He did not even have control over what was going on in the word where IIIIII lived. In other words I was being completely self absorbed.. It was at this point my niece was getting ready for her nap, and she was picking up all of her toys, when i heard her singing (on perfect key i might add) a song i had not thought of since perhaps childhood. " When I am afraid I will trust in Him, I will trust in Him, I will Trust in Him.. When I am afraid I will trust in Him..." i was immediatly humbled.. I wanted so much to change my former "HENIOUS" adittude and i was so proud of babo. That was the only part of the song she knew but she sang it over and over.. and she sang it in a way where she truly ment it. Her words spoke to my heart and convicted me so much. Trusting God is a very hard concept to learn.. And i suppose the process of learning it is rather lifelong..

Well I had a completly amazing weekend with so mych amazingness that happened. But no time for THAT! haha..
Ashley and juans wedding was so fun, my dearest sister Bell sang and she did soooooo amazing. it made me so happy to see her up there doing a service. She sang in a way that spoke of her dedication to our Lord, and she sang to the Lord, proclaiming his righteousness and his perfect plan of marriage. The song she sang was the LOVE passage from 1Corinthians. " Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant, does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered,does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth;bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails.." The sermon made my heart swell with what the savior has done for each and every child of His. And for The love that He has for us. It made me so happy to be a daughter of the King. :)

So if anyone is reading this.. i would ask you all to pray for a few things.. that i will countinually trust in jesus. TRUST HIM WITH MY LIFE. Also, that i would get a job soon... because im going broke.. and i want new shoes. No i am kidding haha. ( but really)

Love Always
Holly Dee

Ahhh. Today was the most fabulous day, all of my cousins came over and I was so happy to see them. There were many hugs and "i love you" s and we all had great fun. And of course the iced coffee i made helped everything. (Because it was pretty much amazing.) And i had a lovely time seeing emma ( i felt like i had not seen her in ages). we went to the sore to get ribbon and it was fabulous. :)
Well lately i have totally been struggling with discontentment. Sometimes i just really do not know what i am supposed to be doing. There are so many paths of things i could choose to be, and do in life. I'm trying to decide what to major in and where to work. But it is SOOO comforting to know God has already planned out my paths and He has already planned every thread of my life. It is very hard (with someone as stubborn as myself) to place myself under Gods plan. But i know that it is the right thing and i know Gods way is best. (Sanctification is a lifelong process!! ) :D

But i am enjoying summer so much! We went to the beach recently, my best friend Lenna acompanied us, and it was so fun! To see the power of God in something like the ocean. I love the sound and the salty smell and the breeze off the water, and marvel to think how jesus holds that massive amount of water in itts place. And in no way will it ever transgress its boundaries without the permission of our Father. And we went to lake Texoma the other day with the fasolinos. Haha what an experience. Ellen got burned when she and stephen went on their long "boat ride." Apparently they were "on a boat." And I caught fish and cooked some marvelous creations with Renee in the kitchen. Man our "Tato Tidbits" were simply amazing! tomorrow we have nichelle's wedding shower, and that should be very lush. Since, apparently, the whole entire church is decked out with intensified decorations. (the ladies at the church seriously go all out for these kind of things. I think it will take them most likely 6 hours to take it all down haha)

but since i dont really have anything all that interesting to write down, and the things i do wish i could shout from a rooftop in joy.. well lets just say i will just have to wait 2 or 3 years. Since i am not able to speak of them, nor could i express them if i tried at this point... but in that case you should stay tuned. but on that note, along with a few others, maybe my life is about to get seriously more interesting with all of these decisions and changes that will have to be made in the near future. ( something tells me that only made scene in my own head... but no matter! haha)
Always thinking
Love always

Holly dee

And I Am Thirsty Anyway... So Bring On The Rain.. and The Thunder.

It pains me when so many people are blinded to the good. I wonder if people really ever do see the good because it feels like all they see is the bad. Over and over i am asked to change and to be different. I wish people would see how hard i try.. How much i have changed and how much i have given up. However, i am comforted by the fact, that as my brother in law Micheal always says, "Oh, It is just character building." Roughly meaning, whatever i may experience, if i deal with it the right way, will always make me the bigger person. It will always make me stronger and make me the woman that Christ is shaping me to be, because i know i do have so much to learn and so many places where i need to grow. So to these trials i have to respond, " BRING ON THE RAIN AND THE THUNDER" because i am ready for it...

So aside from that.. man my day was pretty dramatic!! Of course i am horridly ill ( with the swine flu!!! NOT) Well i went to school... And my philosophy class was actually fun because we talked all about the philosophers i already did in high school. BIG HAHA!! Then it was over thank goodness. AND my history professor was teasing me all day when i saw him in the halls saying i needed to "stay away from the pigs!" because i must have contracted the swine flu!!! And was most likely on my way to my perishing bed. In any case, my dearest friend Jon Gohn and i decided to go on a long wilderness treck through dangerously infested forests..we walked all the way down to the snake infested creek and were nearly eaten alive by all the ginormous anicondas. Not really... however, upon our return we discovered... NO we freaked out because we were being attacked by a swarm of indigenous creatures.. it was very disturbing.. However, with the power of robin hood and myself we bested the forces of evil and used all our cunning and our ninja skills to defeat the evil beasts!!! Well the rest of our day was not really too interesting but we did write a paper about sam houston and we ate waffles.. so thats always fun... anywho.....

LOVE YOU ALL!!!!
Holly

My life... as a blogger?

Ahhh Dearest Friends and family. I have started to blog so that all of you people can read about my life (Which of course is just soooo exciting!!!) But more importantly, this is to be a sort of journal.. of which to record my thoughts as evidence of my growth in Christ. He who gave me my life and sustains me day by day. A time to rememeber the good times, and the bad times. To be a wittness of the goodness and faithfulness of God. A book of memories of things gone by and friends that are no more. A place to share new memories and cherished moments. And of course most likely a few rants and raves of all the drama in my life! ( Which is a ton if you know me at all!!!!!) A place of solace to express myself. Because sometimes, it is so much easyer to express myself in writing then it is in verbality. (Who knows if thats a word .. but it is now. haha) I hope through this everyone can see who i truly am. Anywho... i love you all!!!!!

Love always
Holly